Well....After freaking out at 3 in the morning, about my wife and our never ending struggle for some sort of semi-balance to our relationship. Things have started to settle down and I can focus on school and my studies once again. I have an appointment to see my therapist next week . I can not WAIT  to see the look on my therapist's face when  I dump the ''Semi-Truck'' load of Issues and problems that have caused me great amounts of anxiety lately. Im sure that by the time Im finished with my hour Lucy will abandon her ''Lemon-ade'' stand of an office, burn the ''Doctor Is In'' sign, and pray to God that she never sees another nickel In her lifetime.

Besides the never ending Saga of ''Lets Make A Deal'' that Is my marriage. I have been feeling alot of anxiety surrounding school and work. I just started to scratch the surface In my last post about my Issues regarding those subjects. I really don't know what has triggerd these emotions of self-doubt....but that's not what Im concerned about. I know now that these episodes will never go completely away. What does concern me Is how Im dealing with them when they rear their ugly heads. Hence more vists to my therapist.I truly wish to get to the bottom of my anxieties....but most Importantly....Know what and how I should handle them when I reach that point.

I will say that my fears regarding my performance at work had no foundation whatsoever. I went In on my next shift to find my new Clinical Educator repeating all the wonderful things she had heard about my performance on the floors doing treatments.I can't begin to tell you how relieved I was when she stated that we would go through each and every compentcy together and at my PACE...to be sure that I was comfortable with all therapie I would be adminstering at work. After my meeting with her I went to start my shift on the floors. To my amazement....two different nurses on my floor told me how much they appreciated having a therapist like on the floors. Now I know for sure there Is a GOD. It baffles me that God knows exactly when I need to hear those types of affrimations to keep me on track.

As far as school Is concerned....I managed to make It through my first round of testing with nothing less than 90% on my quizes. I'm not trying to blow my own horn here but I dont think anyone else In my progragm would ahve been able to do that. Which leads me Into my crazy post header for today....Today we went over the process of obtaining blood gases from a patient. You basically have to stick somone with a needle to withdraw blood from their artery. Sounds simple right ?? Well It's not rocket science but I did however fail to mention that If you dont perform the procedure right not only Is It painfull for the patient but you can also hit the nerve that the radial artery runs along and paralyze the patient. THATS RIGHT I SAID PARALYZE !!!!

So there we are practicing the procrdure on a manequin's arm...when suddenly I am paired up with the oldest student In the program. How Old was she you ask ?? Well to give you an Idea, her drivers licsence picture Is In black and white. Thats how old. Her hand eye cordination went out thwe window with American Bandstand. So It's me and '' Old Mother Hubbard'' and were listening to Instructions on how to properly handle this ''Bowie Knife'' of a needle. I am trying to demonstrate this technique to my partner, when all of a sudden she jerks her hand and the next thing you know I have a 3in needle sticking through my finger. Thats right she stuck me. Next thing you know '' Liz Taylor '' Is freaking out and trying to pull the needle out In her current state of delerium. My Instructor gets a gaze of whats happening, turns plae white, and almost passes out.

 Needless to say...I spent the rest of the day at the clinic. So not only did I have a 3in needle in finger... but thanks to my very own ''Gloden Girl'' I also recieved a needle In the ASS. Tetnus shot...It was mandatory...or so they told me.Well atleast things are getting back to some form of normalcy for me by having the Impossible and the Improbable happen to me all In the same day. Im actually laughing right now...Big smile on my face... as I relive todays events. My advice to you all Is this....First...always and I MEAN always have faith and confidence In yourself and your abilities...Two...never take advice from someone who asks for a ''Nickel'' Instead of a ''Penny'' for your thoughts....and last but definitately not least....When working with Senior Citizens that are holding sharp objects In their hands....Be sure to ask...and I quote my Cousin Vinny...''When was the last time you had the ''Dictness'' of your glasses checked...........Good Grief !!!!!!!!