Lori,
I cant explain the overwhelming joy and yet inevitable(sp) sadness I felt as I read your final Installment. I am trully THRILLED to see that you have come to the relization that no matter how torn-up, ripped-apart, and emotionally shattered we can become by the hands of others.Or when dreams that we have Invested so much Into. Precious time...Cautious care...hard work...sacrifice...every ounce of our beliefs Instilled Into what we think God has Intended for us...to have It all swept away In the blink of an eye...Like a small growing tree uprooted.. by an unexpected hurricane...without warning or reason. That no matter how much damage as been done to our physce(sp)...our hearts...and OUR FAITH. Eventually... we all need to get back In touch with each other... and Most Importantly with GOD.

While I have sat back and slowly watched (and read) you partake In that process... one SMALL...BABY...STEP at a time. I have silently CHEERED you on the whole way. Oh sure...I have chimed In here and there with my small bits encouragements when I felt they were appropriate(sp).
My only Intent for those small bits of heartfelt advice...was that somehow they would reinforce to you that there Is always hope... or how should I put it.....something special...within God and within you. That blogging Is and ALWAYS was meant to be a tool. A tool to help you rediscover your trust and faith In others...But most Importantly... In the Lord.

From the first time I read your blog... I could tell right away... that the words that I just wrote.. you knew to be true within your heart and soul. That someday the storm clouds that surrounded your mind and haunted your dreams would eventually clear to reveal a bright new day for you to enjoy with the beneifts of full nights rest. That the cage that kept this wonderful heart locked away.. would someday be lifted and you would be able touch the lives and souls of those who live and breath around you. Not just us who walked with you every step of the way from behind a computer screen and keyboard.

I also knew that for you...Living In a bubble could not last forever and one day that bubble would burst and be gone. And all those Dragons that have caused you so much pain and fear...the ones you have been battling for what seems an neverending eternity(sp)...The ones that constantly circled your kingdom...the kingdom you strive to reach everyday....the Kingdom that Is and will ALWAYS be your home...would disappear like fireflys at the end of a hot and humid summer.

I believe that this new adventure for Bi-Polar ( no disrespect Intended) Is not a " Second Chance" so-to-speak...But more of an continuation of what God has Intended for you all along. I also believe that God puts us all through our own trials and tribulations... but that only the truly special people ever come to realize them and appreciate them for what they are and what they were meant to be. You Lori...are one of those special people. For all of these things that I have mentioned...I am truly happy for you and rejoyce with you... even as I type these words right now.

The only thing that saddens me about your rediscovery... Is that I feel like Im losing another close and special friend... that God has placed along the Road of adventures for " Charlie Brown". Its not that I think that this Is the end of the road for our friendship. I look foward to hearing about all the joy and exciement you will experince on this new path God has placed before you. Its just that all my life..Throughout all my heartaches and sorrows...my own trials and tribulations...there has always been certain people who have played a role...In me keeping my HOPE...FAITH....and my SANITY.
No matter how big or small that role may have been...those few chosen friends hold a special place within my heart. I have lost connection with a lot of those folks and have never been given the opportunity to express my utmost thanks and gratitude. You my friend... are one of those people !!

So I will say this to you now...before Its too late...THANK YOU for all your support and kind words of encouragement. Thank You for taking the time to befriend a troubled soul...who had the chance to say first... what Im sure a lot of others felt regarding your blog... when you thought of shutting It down the first time*. Thank You for being the voice for all of us who were lost...confused...angry..torn-up...and ripped apart Inside. Because while we were walking with you on your journey to healing....some of us found that healing within ourselves.

Good-Bye Bi-polar Girl. I wish for you on your new journey... lots of success...lots of laughs....Lots of Love..and most Importantly..A universal elevator key....So you NEVER have to take the STAIRS again..Peace and Hair Grease...Your Friend ALWAYS..Chris (Charlie Brown)